I have not been able to sleep through the night for the past month or two.  I would get tired, but would wake up 3-5 times a night for no apparent reason.  Was it worries or stress?  I cannot tell.

Lay off situation at work is making me tense.  The company gave them two months notice before their last day.  Meanwhile, they are free to work on resumes, talk to recruiters, and go on interviews as needed.  How nice right?  I heard one person having phone interview one time, another had gone to interview a few times.  While they are being productive, I am buried in writing docs and feeling less productive.  I miss coding, miss intense debugging and finally come to the “I got you!” point.  I even miss solving problems in my dreams.  If I only had dreams  nowadays.

Violin has been lying at the exact same spot for a month without being opened or played.  I have been either getting sore from workout or pulling a muscle here and there.  And I am behind in all my favorite TV shows by at least a month on DVR.  With so much not going on, how could I still not being able to sleep?

I wish it would rain more at night; it drowns out my thoughts and sooths me somehow.  Even if I am awake, at least I could tell myself there’s a reason to, to listen to the rain.  I am tired, I just can’t sleep through the night.  Something is happening, I just haven’t figured out what.