I have been receiving emails about upcoming new looks on their websites for DiscoverCard, AmericanExpress, and many others. What are they doing or trying to do? Pushing new looks all at the same time to attract customers?

When his big pale hand held mine, I could feel the warm moist from his skin. It felt warm and peaceful and, safe, for that little suspended moment… He was speaking softly, yet his eyes were speaking another language of their own. I couldn’t quite comprehend, but I thought I could feel their messages, reaching my heart as waves…

I just attended a friend’s wedding. Hm… To be exact, I sort of helped out at a friend’s wedding.

Well… It wasn’t exactly part of the plan, at least my plan. I did not get my friend’s voice message until after the ceremony. So I just went ahead to help out unplanned. Luckily I had my comfy shoes as backup just in case. That was a smart move.

I didn’t know before how many tedious things were involved in planning a wedding. Today I only touched upon a few things, yet they were enough to make my head spin and get quite overwhelmed. Setting up the tables, helping out with greeting the guests, watching the coordinators running in and out with sweat all over their faces yet with an unchanged smile the whole time, seeing bride’s maids carrying boxes of stuff with those tiny pointy heels that made my heart jump for them… phew…

A few things I learned today, however, are as follows:

For the ladies, use sunblock! Even if you “think” it’s indoor, you might be wrong. The sun may give no mercy to those who don’t apply sunblock. Me, as a perfect example, got a pretty even tan today for forgetting to apply sunblock, with a ring of white color on my wrist from wearing a watch, and contrasting white face and neck makeup because I used sunblock on my face. o_O You can imagine what I look like now, right?

For all the helpers in the wedding, get a pair of comfy shoes as backup. Everybody got sore feet today from wearing pretty and new shoes today. “My feet hurt!” was something I heard a lot this evening.

For family wedding coordinators, ask a few more “guy” friends to help on the wedding day. It doesn’t hurt to have a few extra helpers. It’s better than getting short-handed last minute. ^__^ Plus, guys can work a lot faster than girls in a wedding because they don’t need to wear pointy high heels and dresses, with nicely done and sprayed hair, plus makeup that may fade, smudge, or smear with sweat. You get the picture.

All in all, it was a great wedding. I had fun, and learned lots from it.

Congratulations to Patrick and Patricia as the newly wedded husband and wife!

Life is at a pause. I am waiting for something to happen, then I will break free and be a butterfly to fly away. I have been waiting and waiting for that moment to come… When it comes, you will not see me again, for I will no longer look the same as you remembered…

I am still waiting…

Hm.. I haven’t used a pen or pencil for a very long time, not for writing any complete sentences or practicing hand writing at least. But now I am trying to write ????? and it’s driving me almost nuts! They are harder than Chinese to me…

I feel I am back to elementary school again. *sigh.

I had an excellent birthday this year. It was all I could ever dreamt of really, besides the all peaceful being-all-forgotten type which already happened last year of course.

I went with the co-workers to D&B last Thursday to pre-celebrate. That was fun! It was nice to be able to hang out with them outside of work, like friends! Because that was how I felt like being with them at work already, that we are more than just co-workers. Seeing them drinking was another highlight of the night. It was a casual thing for everybody… Even though some people did not drink because they couldn’t or didn’t want to, it was a chance for everybody to socialize and just, like one of them always said, chill.

I tried to stay away from birthday treats and presents. However, I still got a nice chocolate cake AND a wonderful thoughtful amazing mosaic that they put together. They used over 1000 pictures!! No wonder one friend had requested me to upload all the old event pictures online, and another one had been shooting pictures like a maniac for the past weeks. I was completely fooled! ^____^ What a pleasant surprise!!

Dad and mom both remembered my birthday this year, although mom couldn’t celebrate with me because she went back to China. She called a day in advance to say happy-birthday and my dad called as well. My aunt and two cousins remembered it, too, so we went for dim sum over the weekend. Interestingly a lot of people remembered my birthday this year… It just happened…

It’s a great year for me. ^__^ If I could “minus” the sore throat and the coincidental finals on the birthday week, I would be “perfectly” happy.

*sigh. Life just cannot be perfect. Can it?

I went clothes shopping today, well, I gave myself the excuse to make it a birthday shopping… I went crazy… I bought over $200 of stuff.. TWO HUNDRED!!

I have never spent that much $$ on clothes before, like ever! I wonder if this will start another shopping habit besides the face care products… Hm.. dangerous. ;P

I don’t know what tomorrow is going to be like.

I don’t know what I will be like tomorrow.

Will I be the insane weird girl? Or would I start to behave and be just normal? Will I choose to quit everything and start over? Will I have the courage to change?

Will I be able to wake up tomorrow and know it’s reality not just a dream?

Two friends, or was it just one, said that hopefully I would grow out of it after my birthday. Grow out of my wacko weirdo behaviors. Like what? Like …

…

I need to grow up.

I was just listening to “Unwell”… Ya, I am just feeling unwell, but once I am changed, you might wonder what I was like before.

I know the priorities that I should be concentrating at the current moment, yet I am not enforcing them.

Is it the lack of planning, determination, or simply laziness? I have not questioned myself for quite some time when the days have been so very merry and filled with much joy. I need to finish my never-ending resume editing, need to have a healthier sleeping schedule, need to exercise self-control to be just me, not a funny comical weirdo in everybody’s eyes. I should read more… I just found some old writings I had from high school time. I could not believe that I was a better writer back then than right now by ten times. What exactly happened these years, I wondered…