I signed on Trillian as usual. Who is that I wish to see online or talk to? There is really nobody whom I can talk to at this hour online. The people that I can have normal conversations in a daily basis, are either already sleeping soundly, or just staying next door of mine, either watching dramas/movies or reading a good book. It is just an old habit to sign on, and see who is on… Hoping to see some unexpected names sign on, asking about how they have been…

It gets lonely at night sometimes, when I am not obsessive about something that can fully occupy my mind for hours and hours, night after night. It feels too peaceful when the night takes down all lights, and the insects start their own little musical performance. Everybody is sleeping in the house, lights off, while I am still wide awake, feeling the sense of peacefulness sink into my body, weighing my soul down, till I feel some extra pressure is upon my physical and inner body. Breathing becomes extra heavy as well. Is this, what tiredness feels like?