No. I am not changing from blogs to WiKi. This page stays. So are the rest of my blogs. They are my precious babies, each operating/surviving with its own conscious mind..

I didn’t say “from blogging to WiKi.” Rather, I said, “blogware”. There is a difference there.

To cut that short, I have been looking for an appropriate Wiki engine for my website.

How that whole idea began was that I had been trying to study for job interviews. I haven’t get my resume quite together yet. But I do have to multitasking quite a lot (work, friends, parents, job hunting, study for interview, and my precious never ending development website) to get everything going at the same time.

Then I realized, how little did I know about WiKi, and how difficult it is to choose the right one!

I once wrote a blog about choosing a blogware for my site. I read reviews, installed, played with, and uninstalled WordPress, b2, b2evolution, plog, TextPattern, Serendipity, and Nucleus. I finally settled with WordPress. No more hunting around. It’s just too time and energy consuming.. Actually I much prefer plog and TextPattern, but I had quite some problems with plog’s template installation and uninstallation because I do not have root privilege.. Long story.

I thought I had learned my lesson. Unfortunately, I didn’t.

Wiki opened up another big knowledge hole in me. I got sucked in almost immediately, digging and poking at different choices, looking for reviews and comparisons websites. What I found was:
A list of Wiki Engines, equivalent to 17 printed pages!

This sounds more dreadful than the experience of looking for a blogware!

So far I have tried DokuWiki. It has a very simple and nice interface, WYSIWYG for editing, backtrack, revision history, doesn’t require a database. Only problem I have so far is making it to run under Linux when I do not have root privilege. Once again, I am stuck.

I am not going to list all the wikis that I am going to try this time. I have a few more in mind. Perhaps I will write a little review and comparison of the ones I try next time. =)

I had always thought I must have been a cat in my previous life. I felt that I owned a cat’s personality, unpredictable, lazy, sleep a lot, nimble when I needed to be, sensitive, laid back… But something is always lacking. What is it?

When you think of a cat, what do you think of? Is it the soft and shiny coat? Is it the lazy attitude? Is it their mysterious personalities? Is it their barely opened eyes that seem to be looking at you full of contempt? Or do you feel that was their way of seduction? What is it that you are thinking? What does a cat remind you of?

I feel so keen with cats that I believed I was one of them before. Now as a human, from time to time I wanted to resume my identity, cat identity. But something is missing.

I found it from my Christmas gift box.

What is it in it, you must be asking. Is it cat food?! Or litter box!! You started crying out loud!

shh.. listen…

Did you hear that? What do you hear when a cat approaches you? They have soundproof padding under their paws, so it’s not their footsteps. Listen closely. Did you hear that now? Ling ling ling.. ding ding ding.. from far to near…

Cat owners like to put collars around their beloved cats, and with those collars, most often, a bell. =)

I got a bracelet with a tiny bell on it as Christmas gift. Such small bell miraculously fulfills a bit more of my cat dream. It brings simple delight to my life, and a tiny smile on my face.

Can you hear me coming closer to you now? Ling ling ling.. ding ding ding..

I was reading my friend’s blog. She posted some lyrics, mentioned how those words sounded like how she was feeling. I think she is in love, yet not in a love relationship.

I somewhat feel sad for her. Yet who, could have easy relationships? Some relationships are more difficult than others. Some are sweeter, some more bitter and sour. Some make people smile; some make people cry. Even in the same relationship, there are up and down times. I’ve been there. I’ve had great and bad times. I smiled, laughed, cried, stressed, felt lonely, numb… Now life is more at peace when I am not emotionally devoted to anybody.

Is it selfish to not love another person when that person loves you? Is it a crime? Is it a sin, a guilt? Is it guilty to love somebody who does not love you back? Or emotions do not carry guilt, only actions do… Criminals are punished for their actions, not their thoughts. Does it mean that we are free to feel and to love? Why loving and not loving involve guilty feelings, then…

Babbling… I keep it on… Babbling alone, after midnight…

Thoughts surround me everywhere. I am tired, but they will not let go of me.

I wish I could feel how my friend feels right now. I wish I could be love sick. I wish I could love somebody now, yet I start to doubt my ability on it…

An old friend will be coming today. She is my junior high friend from China. I will be picking her up from airport, but I wonder if I will recongize her after being apart for 6 years… After all, six years are almost a quarter of my quarter-of-a-century life. How much I have changed in these years, how much she must have changed as well…

I hate getting sick.

Unfortunately I got a cold TWICE in December, exactly 2 weeks apart. (I wonder if they are siblings)

I was having nasal congestion. That affected my ears (I couldn’t hear), my head (felt like exploding any time), my appetite (couldn’t taste anything), my sleep (couldn’t breathe and waking up every hour), and just about everything else.

I was very glad that I had Japanese drama to distract me. Otherwise I might get very bad-tempered.

Today I am finally back to work. I felt that the break was way too short. I wanted another break soon. I still had so many movies that I wanted to watch…

But I should start reading again instead.. And violin practice. *sigh…

Where art thou, my next break?